March 26, 2002, at 1:01 a.m..
OK, so I swore I wouldn't come back here. I need to though. As maybe a few of you know... no, actually, those of you who know me I'm sure do not check this website anymore. Anyway. Some of you may know that I recently decided to pledge a fraternity and it is taking up a lot of my time. So I don't get to post on my real site very often. So I decided that I would concentrate on that one. Unfortunately most of the stuff I have on my mind is stuff that I need to get said out of the way of listening ears. So.
I have problems with girls. I fall in love too much. Not love, but it sure is strong enough to make me crazy. If you go back and read, you will see that quite plainly.
So recently, also due to the fraternity, I have not seen a lot of people that I used to see a lot. So when I do get to see them after, what, five or six weeks, I expect a little bit of an enthusiastic response. Well I saw one person that I enjoy seeing, and I got a hug, and went to eat lunch with her. We talked a little bit, but she was with some friends and we really didn't talk enough. It made me sad that she wasn't as happy to see me as I was her.
Anyway.
Tonight I was planning on sitting here and studying and that, of course, didn't work out. So instead I sat here and played with the internet and got all kinds of new songs. So another friend who's company I enjoy IMs me and says that she wants to take a walk with me after she gets some things done. So I waited for a little while and then she tells me that she is blowing me off to go to the store with her roommate. She blew me off to go the store with someone who she sees everyday, rather than hanging out with me. I did get to see her, but regardless, it still sort of made me wonder.
I am talking out of my ass now, because it is late, and I can't stay up for much longer, but anyway. It feels good to say what I want to say even if you don't understand it.
love,
ben
